The People's Princess & NH Racings Slow Slide Into Oblivion??

I can't believ its been 10 years since the death of Princess Diana. Although I never had the privilege to meet or see her in person I was shocked and upset like millions of others across the world when I found out she'd died. I remember I was lazing in bed & my dad came in & said Princess Diana was dead but I didn't believe him. If you know my dad you'll know why coz he's always making stuff up to try & wind me up or catch me out.

Anyway as usual when I don't believe him I go straight to my mam who never lies to me & I asked her. She confirmed it & I remember sitting downstairs watching the news channel all day & for the next few days actually. The only other times I've been morbidly glued to the news was when the twin towers were destroyed & when America & co invaded Iraq soon after. I don't make a point of watching the news - its too depressing. I only take vague notice of local news...

Though what they plan to do with York racecourse I do not know. Sometimes things should be left alone. Racings been taking place on the course for ages without any need for widening the turn after the winning post near where the owners / trainer car park is. For a start horse's bunch up going round a corner rarely being more than five horse widths wide (at the very most) round a turn. What's the point of a wider turn when they won't use it?! Apart from to keep York out of action for a bit. As the adage goes: if it ain't broke, don't fix it.

It'll be like when they made Grand National fences softer or when they took out water jumps & ditches from the majority or national hunt tracks. Hell there was even talk of moving the famous Sandown Railway fences so horses didn't have to jump three obstacles in such quick succession & of making Haydock's notoriously difficult fences softer to stop fallers & keep animal rights people happy. Quite frankly if the trainers did their jobs fences wouldn't need to be soft coz a horse would be trained to jump them correctly. NH racehorses should be flung around a cross country course in their spare time instead of standing around in their boxes. That would sharp teach them to not leave a leg behind or to life their kness up & respect a fence & jump it properly, believe me.

And don't get me started on bloody brush "hurdles". Why don't we just be done with it & go down the Austrialian route & have bright yellow hurdles made of soft brush type bristles. They are yellow in colour so "the dear little horsies can see it better so they don't fall". I'm telling you now a horse jumps blind regardless of the fence colour coz their line of vision isn't designed to see something directly in front of them like a fence which makes these horses all the more remarkable & whoever sold that crap to the Aussie's wants taking to task for spreading such bullshit. No you don't get proper jumpers anymore. Just look at Kauto Star. He's famous for not lifting his knees & Moscow Flyer who often didn't get enough height at a fence through lack of respect. Red Rum & Desert Orchid must be turning in their graves.

Or better yet to keep the animal rights people happy, lets scrap the "cruel" things altogether & leave horses to their own devices so they can return to the hers & run wild & free as they did prior to man's domestication.

Ciao for now

TJ

Teige Almighty??!!

Todays subject was "Is there a God?" The reason being & you won't believe me when I say this but last night I was looking for a dvd in a very messy cupboard. I kinda disturbed a pile of junk & something fell on my head. It was a little bible of the new testament that I recieved in our first year at secondary school. So I racked my brains all last night as to what it could mean.

The guys say its just a coincidence but AF who is a believer in God anyway thinks its a sign but more importantly asked what I felt it was. My safest reaction to such questions is always "I dunno" accompanied by a shrug but I couldn't just reel that one off - which AF reckoned was another sign in itself. He said if I could believe in Karma & Destiny then why not the notion that a God exists?

I do actually believe in two God-like beings: Poseidon God of the Seas who I usually talk to before I set foot on a boat full stop & believe me on some of the cruise ships I've been on I've asked him to keep us safe & Epona, Goddess of Horses who I have asked to keep horses I've had or known safe & well or help them get better when they are sick or make the crazy long shot win! - Ok not that last one but you get the picture. So I do have the capacity to believe in something strongly & unconditionally. For example I still believe in Sander Camillo who has done jack all this season & I still believe - no scratch that - I know Kicking King will beat Kauto Star if he has fully put his tendon injury behind him. Two years off the track will not have dented his ability one iota. I also believe in angels, spirits & ghosts but thats another entry entirely. But I'm getting side-tracked.

AF's question stumped me yet further & so I've either been in deep solitary thought all day or chatting with AF to help me figure it out. If more proof were needed at 10am I said to AF "God I'm hungary" & before he had a chance to go to th eshop & get me something, JK came in with cakes. Even AF looked at me & said what I was thinking "That was very spooky - could I do it with money?!" Obviously not meaning the last bit seriously. Or was he? Coz at 4.50pm this arvo before I left I thought "God I need to go to the cash point" & the next thing I know J's called me into her office & given me £25 for all my hard work. Bearing in mind I never get cash gifts coz thats what regular wages are for. It was so weird & out of character for J!! AF doesn't know about this one yet so he'll have a field day tomorrow. This is on top of two other incidents today.

I dropped a shed load of paperwork on the floor & they landed face down bar one sheet that did land face down but the bottom of it was curled over displaying the phrase .... "God has created each person to celebrate life to the full". I quite like that line actually. It makes sense to me.

To top the day off when I got home I was putting my jewellery away off the weekend & I happened upon my gold with orange-red stones celtic style cross that I've had since I was fifteen but haven't worn it for eight years. I swear it wasn't there when I got my jewellery out on the Saturday. I would have remembered it. So the necklace is now on my bedside table glinting at me in the fading sunlight while I have stuck the above mentioned phrase onto the inside of my wardrobe door above the mirror which I look into each day to do my hair. Not sure why I put it there - it just felt the right thing to do.

I feel like a flipping extra in Evan Almighty!

Ciao for now

(an enlightened??!!) TJ

Get Well Soon & Bye Bye Mr American Pie

Nothing much to say except get well soon to Owen Wilson & if attempted suicide reports because of a girl are true, don't give her the satisfaction of bringing you down. No girl in the world is worth taking your life over - especially when that life brings so much joy to others, which of course yours does. So please find the strength to get through this coz I don't want to loose one of my fave actors prematurely & its about time you teamed up with Jackie Chan for the third installment of the "Shanghai" series - hey, it worked when I wished for them to make a Rush Hour 3! xx

In news closer to home our non American 's placement people want to pull him out of our office immediately. Before you rejoice J says he can't go til after she gets back from her hols coz I won't be able to manage on my own. Who won't?! Has she even asked me?? No. Let me tell you now I'll manage perfectly well like I always do. I just want him gone so much. I guess 15 days or so isn't too long a wait as we'll be getting someone new from a different scheme - the same one my ex protege D came from & we all know how that one turned out, Still I've said it before & I'll say it again - if you pay peanuts, you get monkeys.

Ciao for now

TJ

Bank Holiday Joy & Dream Wedding Receptions

Still can't be arsed to do the final results from York so you'll just have to wait. It appears a good time was had by all over the bank holiday weekend with copious amounts of alcohol being consumed. I ended up at my bosses last minute BBQ on Saturday & got terribly hammered. Mind you so was J who kept telling everyone that would listen I was great & that me & her were good friends. Makes a change! Subsequently yoday she gave me presents of a pair of jade green butterfly earrings & because I was a vixen in red at her party, a red ring to mtach the outfit I wore.

The pay may be shit but she's more than made up for it with the numerous gifts (or bribes as the guys like to call them) throughout the year. I'm sick of telling her to stop it as I get spoilt more than her own daughter does for God's sake. It's a bit embarrassing.

I continue to be sick of our non american. He's now taken to blatantly ignoring my requests that he does something & probably incorrectly I have given up on him but I don't know how to deal with him as I've never been in charge of someone I couldn't sweet talk, flutter my eyelashes at, manipulate or bribe - just ask they guys! He just doesn't play ball.

Todays big topic was "wedding receptions: where would you have yours & whats the best / worst one you've ever been to?" My worst was at the Copt Hill pub for my Aunts wedding a few years ago now. It takes the accolade of being the worst coz our little band of three (me, my mam & dad & usually my sister too though she didn't go this time) is always ignored by the rest of the family & this was no exception. Thee beer was crap along with the music too.

The best was when me & my mate gate crashed at a hotel we were staying at & she pretended to be with the band so we got free drink. At the end of the night the bride said we could take anything we wanted as a momento of the day so we took delivery of a large glass vase that had been in the centre of our table all night. My mate had it on her mantlepiece until the day she died where upon it mysteriously disappeared from her house.

Which brings me to where I'd have my reception. Strictly speaking hypothetically as Im not getting married, I'd have it in a marquee in a field in York someplace. Failing that in a casino in Vegas. Or a private yacht moored in Monaco harbour. Or by my private villa pool of the Trisara hotel, Phuket gazing at over the ocean bathed in glorious sunshine. Or in the restaurant on board the Thomson Destiny (Destiny being as appropriate word when weddings are mentioned) sailing round the Med. I've wanted to get married on the bridge of a cruise ship by the Captain for a while now, though the Destiny isn't one of the ships licensed to do weddings at this moment in time. Or to keep my mam happy, Beamish Hall or to keep me happy, Starbucks - wohoo! I duno. I'd hate to have to actually make that kind of decision!

Ciao for now

TJ

If Wishes Were Winning Tips...

It was a day full of wishes that we never changed our minds from our original individual selections last night as we talked each other out of the first three winners. I missed Greek Wells, Top Dog misses Purple Moon & Mini missed Sir Gerry. Thats why sometimes being in a syndicate isn't all that great. We now need an inspired Mini insider info tip to put us back on track otherwise I'll be ending my gambling career with a pop rather than a big bang. Anyway Day One looks like this:-

1st place ----- TJ ----- 2 winners

2nd place ----- Top Dog ----- 2 winners

3rd place ----- Mini Cooper ----- 1 winner

And Day Three's selections are as follows:-

TJ:- 1.35pm Mister Hardy 2.05 Fashion Rocks 2.35 Annemasse / Docofthebay 3.10 Enticing 3.50 Welsh Emperor 4.25 Winter Sunrise 5.00 Sunley Peace / Serpentaria

Top Dog:- 1.35pm Berbice 2.05 Fleeting Spirit 2.35 Benandonner / Flipando 3.10 Moorhouse Lad 3.50 Duff 4.25 Gull Wing 5.00 Camps Bay

Mini Cooper:- 1.35pm Johar Jamal 2.05 You'resothrilling 2.35 Fremen / Humungous 3.10 Hoh Mike 3.50 Jack Sullivan 4.25 Wannabe Posh 5.00 Bollin Felix

Another quiet day on the Western Front as all the drivers & our non American were on a first aid training course on site. So I have nothing to say. Wow. Except I have my curls back. Shame there was no one around to see me looking cute. Isn't that always the way?!

Ciao for now

TJ

A Woman In Love & The End Of An Era

All Hail Lucarno (White & green silks, above). He's an absolutely stunning looking individual and I am completely smitten with him & have been since I first set eyes on him. It's love people. If he were human I'd marry him like a shot! Role on the St Leger. Also a big thanks to Septimus (purple silks, top pic) who has finally returned to the track after qute an absence & Authorized for picking up the winning thread. The downside of the day was missing the 33-1 shot Cristal Clear when Top Dog didn't keep his faith which means Day One look like this:-

1st place ----- TJ ----- 1 winner

2nd place ----- Mini Cooper ----- 1 winner

3rd place ----- Top Dog ----- 1 winner

And I shall just dive straight into Day Two's selections:-

TJ:- 1.30pm Peruvian Prince 2.00 Nacho Libre 2.35 Strategic Mount 3.10 Allegretto 3.50 Captain Gerarrd 4.25 Redsensor 5.00 Morinqua

Top Dog:- 1.30pm Font 2.00 Swiss Franc 2.35 Group Captain 3.10 Peeping Fawn 3.50 Sailor At Sea 4.25 Giant Love 5.00 Peak District

Mini Cooper:- 1.30pm Flying Clarets 2.00 Easy Target 2.35 Mutawaffer / Lake Poet 3.10 Silkwood 3.50 Look Busy 4.25 Glorious Gift 5.00 Fathom Five

I would like to take this opportunity to say that relations have become increasingly strained to say the least between Top Dog & myself so after York we head into our futures not as friends but as enemys. Its the end of a big, influential chapter in my life so of course the decision isn't without its pain but if I am to continue in my positive frame of mind I have to rid myself of those that keep me rooted in the past. As friends we've been through some tough times & always made it safely to the other side but its fair to say we've now reached the end of the road. So Top Dog I wish you all the success in the world & hope you get everything you want out of life. The same goes for you MC. Lots of love, Teigey-B xx

Anyways I better move on before I start to cry! Nothing else to report really bar the fact our non American is back & making sure we all know how ill he is. Men are so melodramatic. Not much more to say apart from why does everything happen at once? By that I mean I have a full calendar of events this weekend & just wish everything was more evenly spaced out. I'll be suffering from burn out come Tuesday.

Ciao for now

TJ

Happy Bday Madge & A Wkend Round Up

I'd like to kick off by saying a happy 49th bday to the original Queen of Pop, Madonna. She's one of my all time favourite female artists expecially the song "Hung Up". I LOVE that tune so much.

I'll also get Day One's York tips out the way:-

TJ:- 1.30pm Greek Envoy 2.00 Juniper Girl 2.35 Lucarno 3.10 Notnowcato 3.50 Without A Prayer 4.25 Rubirosa 5.00 Judd Street

Top Dog:- 1.30pm Mull of Dubai 2.00 Septimus 2.35 Mahler 3.10 Dylan Thomas 3.50 Legislation 4.25 Legal Eagle 5.00 Efistorm

Mini Cooper:- 1.30pm Futun 2.00 Balkan Knight 2.35 Boscobel 3.10 Authorized 3.50 Captain Brilliance 4.25 Fol Hollow 5.00 Gallery Girl

The Director that has hated me from day one says I need to go on a customer service course. Its a bit late to be worrying about all now considering I have worked there for the past two years ago! Still, Im just going to do the course as I'll get a NVQ out of it & although I don't hold those type of qualifications in high regard, other companies do. But he better be careful coz once I have it I might quit & go work in a call centre for a lot more money. Oh damn I've just thought of a downside. I'd bump into Top Dog & Mini on a regular basis. Hell could even end up being their boss one day. Just a thought!

Now I can move on to my wkend round up. It had everything - alcohol, excessive spending, crazy dancing to 80's tunes, gossip, a radical image change & a dawn of realization. I have spent all my wages for this month on a shopping spree on Saturday& I haven't even had them put into my acocunt yet. I got the hottest black Karen Millen designer dress & it kind of snow balled from there. Me & this dress have a spiritual connection. Its a size 6 which are hard to find in the first place & it called to me as I was walking past the store - I wasn't even going to go in originally. Once I tried it on I was sold; even if it did cost me 8 days wages!

I also got a Radley handbag, 3 pairs of jeans, 2 pairs of shoes, 3 waistcoats, 2 casual tops, a pair of ear rings, a diamante necklace & ear ring set, 2 workd shirts, 2 pairs of work trousers, 2 bottles of Boujois nail enamel (c'mon I'm a walking advert here - even the guys at work have started to compliment me on my nails!) & a box of perm solution....

.... which brings me to my image change. I (or more acurately my mam) put my beloved curls back in my hair. I look cute with curls (which is where the dawn of realization fits in) & get more male attention. Wohoo! Or I would if I can be bothered to take care of them. I forgot how much work is involved in keeping the curls in & not letting them go flat & straighten out everytime you go to bed. I couldn't be bothered to fo them this morning for work. I only ever do them properly for a night out so no one got to see how cute I looked yesterday. Isn't that always the case?!

Ciao for now

TJ

Shameless Advertising, Dentists & Guilt

Well it was another trip to the dentist for me this morning but now at least I don't have to see him til Feb 2008. However I've been in pain all day & painkillers just don't seem to be working & I can't eat coz it hurts & can't drink coz it doubly hurts. Forget dieting girls, get yourselves to a dentist!

Following yesterdays driver bollocking they have closed ranks & are blaming me for being the snitch in the first place. I was not despite the fact I know who the ring leader is / was. Anyone with half a braincell could figure the culprit out.

In other news I have made another donation to the charity close to my heart, Combat Stress. I was prompted to do so when I went to the cash point in preparation for my shopping spree tomorrow & I found to my eternal joy that I had more money in the account than I first thought. Then a little voice at the back of my head reminded me I hadn't contributed to a soldiers' psychiatric counselling for a while. I hate those little voices... maybe it me who needs the counselling! Seriously though, Combat Stress does a fantastic, tireless job of helping our servicemen & women while our government can't be arsed.

And finally I just HAVE to sing the praises of Bourjois nail enamel. Not only coz it goes on perfect every time with one stroke (though I usually put three coats on for maximum effect) but I did my nails all nice & pretty last Sunday & the colour hasn't faded, chipped or let me down at all during a week of filing, typing, house cleaning, any water based activities like bathing, hair washing etc while other brands barely last two days. Ok so its on the expensive side but its worth every penny for a full 6 days (& counting!) non stop shimmer & shine - perfect for busy gals on the go. Ok Bourjois: send me free stuff now thats enough free advertising. Well it works for Z-list celebrities.

Ciao for now

TJ

New Blood & Hypocrisy

Our non American's blown his last chance by skiving off work for the past two days with "flu". On both occasions he phoned in sick he sounded very normal to me with no hint of a mere sniffle let alone full blown flu. However once I put him through to J he apparently put on a very poor crocky voice. Needless to say he won't be taken on once his placement comes to an end in September. I'm overjoyed.

I have decided to make York next week my final fling as a member of the syndicate. I brought my retirement forward because I just can't cope with the politics of it all any more. From now on if I want to have a bet, I'm going it alone. I can see a new name coming on .... The Lone Wolf perhaps?!

Things have been so dire at work the past few days I can't even bring myself to write about them though I will say all drivers got their arses kicked for behaviour which was (or is, I'm not sure on the tense to use!) approaching bullying & we have a zero tolerance approach to such things at our place. One false move by any of them & they too will be fired. God we seem to be going through staff at a rate of knots this year. Having said that, I'm not that lucky & I'm in this stricken ship for the long haul.

We have two new guys on 13 week placements starting next week as valleters. One of them is round about my age & is quite cute. No, scratch that. He's HOT! FINALLY I have a reason to get out of bed in the morning (unless he was in it) & drag my carcass to work.

I wasn't a happy bunny today as I had to grovel on the phone to someone who was completely in the wrong, purely because we get a lot of money from them. I had to do it coz I have the best "apologetic" voice apparently. Quite frankly every word I said stuck in my throat as I don't think we should accept blame for their blatant cock up just because they give us "a lot of money". It gives them the impression they can do what they damn well please & get away with it and yet we are very strict with certain other groups, I hate the hypocrisy of it all - everyone should be treat the same from those that give us thousands of pounds worth of work to those that give us a couple of hundred but maybe I'm just being too idealistic. Oh well.

Ciao for now

TJ

Straight Into The Rush Hour & In The Dog House

Yep i'm late putting this up but I literally got in from work had to dive in the shower, wash my hair, dry my bloody hair & be out the house again in forty minutes, Bearing in mind it takes at least thirty to dry my hair in the first place. Anyway I've just been to see Rush Hour 3. It rocks. I love Jackie Chan & Chris Tucker together. They crack me up. Usually when I'm feeling down I'll put Rush Hour 2 on & I soon feel better but I think the 3rd installment tops that one. Roll on number 4!

Top Dog & Mini arrived back home this evening as one of my girls left for Greece - the same place where we went to when we picked up the Calypso. The first thing Top Dog did was bring me my present... but I wasn't in. He was subsequently livid at the fact I have a life outside of him & that added to the fact he blames me for him not getting the best antepost price for Eagle Mountain meant we had an almight row while I was sitting in the middle of McDonalds trying to eat one of those limited edition bbq chicken premier burgers & fries with my mam. Now we aren't talking. Just as well I quit at the end of the season so I don't have to put up with any more shit from you guys.

Ciao for now

TJ

A Mighty Heart

Woke up this morning & I couldn't move again though it was definitely my left hip locking this time. What woke me in the first place was a terrible nightmare I had. Its so horrific I can't even bring myself to put it on my dream blog. Besides the Dream Doctor is out until I can find a replacement.

A quick note (for those that care) to say we have taken Eagle Mountain as our ante post 2007 St Leger bet as we all love that colt & think he's been terminally unlucky all season. Plus the fact he was nearly brought down three starts ago yet his attitude towards racing remains the same is a tribute to his mental strength. Sadly we only got 15's when we could have had double that after the Epsom Derby but certain people wouldn't take my advice.

Believe me, usually if a horse falls or nearly falls it gets anxious about the very activity that made it fall or nearly fall in the first place. Be that jumping a certain type of fence or in Eagle Mountain's case, galloping right behing another horse with barely a hairs width between them.

I watched Memoirs of a Geisha yesterday & its not a patch on the book. I was kinda disappointed truth be told & I was so looking forward to it as well.

And finally my nana should be out of hospital soon although she has developed a water infection but it isn't apparently too serious which is a relief all round. Guess Karma is back to doing what she should be doing. Thanks for that xx

Ciao for now

TJ

Up In Smoke??

Just a quick note really to say our Ante post bets for 2008 before I forget them. The guys still think about racing even while they are on their holidays - I didnt! Anyway last night it was decided to go with the following & to be honest I'm rather impressed they didn't let the drink influence them in any way as we'd already discussed these horses six weeks ago but hadn't put any money down.

2000 Guineas:- Declaration of War (TJ) / Winker Watson (all) / Pegasus Again (EW) (TJ / Top Dog) 1000 Guineas:- Elletelle (Top Dog) / Albabilia (TJ) Derby:- Maze (all) / Feared In Flight (TJ) Grand National:- Ballycassidy (Top Dog) / Hedgehunter (TJ)

I have decided to quit syndicate betting after the end of this flat season bar at the Cheltenham & Aintree Festivals & the Classics themselves. I may now & again have the odd sporadic bet but other than that I won't. For once no one has tried to persuade me other wise but then I always did go for the more outlandish selections!

And also a very sad note, another of my favourite young sires, Hennessy (Chestnut, above) has died at stud in Argentina of a heart attack at the tender age of 14. Luckily he leaves behind his son, the great sprinter, Johannesburg, another of my fave up & coming sires. I really don't know what's happening lately to make all these influential horses pass away. Its like there's some kind of big conspiracy going on so that the only stallions left of any importance belong to Coolmore & Darley.

Ciao for now

TJ

Congratulations Emma B! xx

A big congratulations to Emma Bunton aka Baby Spice & boyfriend Jade Jones on the arrival of their first child, a beautiful little boy named Beau who weighed in at 7lb 15 oz. I've always had a soft spot for a NH horse named Beau a few years back so I quite like his name. I've been waiting absolutely ages for Emma to give birth. I've been so excited for her since I first found out! She's be making me broody next. Lol.

Back in my world, AC got the sack today - he FINALLY wore out his last chance. I can breathe a sigh of relief coz I've never liked him. Two more to go! There was a big meeting between us, Nexus & our rivals from across the water this arvo. I have no idea of the whole details as I didn't see our leader E by the time I went home. On the subject of E, he loved the bday present I gave him (its his 59th on sunday) a Elvis wall clock that he's going to put in the newly renovated room in his loft. He's also going to have a sign made saying "Jailhouse Clock". Men are so bad with their jokes it hurts.

Topic of the day was "Honeymoon Destinations". I swear for working with a bunch of guys we don't half have some girly convo topics! Anyway, AC (before his sacking) said Malibu Beach so he could check out the hot chicks - I think he missed the point of the question. AF said Paris, B, JK & E all went for the Caribbean & J didn't care so long as it was hot. R said his wife's "beep". Classy. & me? I'd like to go to San Francisco. An unconventional choice I know, but I like to see things on hols rather than just sit in the sun 24/7

Anyway thats your lot. Enjoy your weekend folks. Ciao for now

TJ

Mummy, When I Grow Up I Want To Be A Geisha

I took the book Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden away as my holiday read & I just finsished it last night. I cried at the ending, which isn't me but it was just so sweet & romantic. Again that isn't me! I can't wait to see the movie (God only knows how I'll react to seeing the ending visually) now, which we've had sitting on our Sky plus box for months. I refused to watch it prior to reading the book as I didn't want to spoil the books magic. I'm glad I waited though when I'll get to see the movie is anybody's guess what with my sister being at home then my dad will be due back & he'll nick the TV.

Its official - I have totally lost my few remaining marbles. Luckily AF was on hand to help me gather them back up. At work, not only did I insist I worked at "(insert company name here) Hotel" - again! - everytime I answered the phone but I kept trying to put bus keys in the fridge. Don't ask. I also put my mobile in there. Twice. Fuck knows why. My brains been like mush all day.

J says its love; everyone else says Im over doing it. I'm with them. Mind you since I got back from my hols I haven't been myself. Its like I've come back a totally different person. I don't know if I like the new me but then I never really liked the old one either so I'm just going to go with it.

Anyway I'm off to frazzle my brain further by trying to work out how much money we have as starting capital for the York Ebor festival in a few weeks time. This should be good!

Ciao for now

TJ

My Name Is Teige

As the only rant I would have today is toward God (should one exist) I decided against it for fear of a public backlash from religious fanatics. Its widely regarded that I'll be going to hell anyway so if there does turn out to be a God & I get to stand before him & he's looking at my life & all my misdemeanours before deciding whether to let me in heaven or not, I won't be remotely fazed when he says "Right missy you're going to hell."

What I will say is I do believe in Karma, Fate & Destiny & in general if we do good things then good things happen to us but if we do bad things then obviously you get a shit deal in life. I've always believed this & AF is starting to come round to my way of thinking thanks in part to one of my favourite TV shows, "My Name Is Earl".

As it is, I try to be a good person but quite a lot of the time it doesn't work. I think I'm just managing to break even with the offsetting the good to the bad though recently, since my sis moved back in, I have done more bad things than good. She brings out the worst in me.

This whole subject arose when my friend who is a sickeningly good person - in fact I always think she's an angel in human form - was in a car crash last night & I was going down the "if there's a God why do bad things happen to good people?" route at work. It wasn't her fault at all but she does have terrible whiplash & is off work for a while. She's quite badly shaken obviously & is a little afraid to get behind the wheel again at the moment. I only found out about it this morning as she didn't want to upset me further last night as I'd alreadyu had some bad news about my nana. See, I told you she's a complete angel xx

So in order for two unpleasant things to have happened in my life in such a short space of time, Karma must be punishing me for something quite bad that I've done though I can't pinpoint what as of yet. Typically it comes at a time when I thought I was finally turning my life around & actually beginning to feel positive & happy about my future (thanks again T!). Unless I'm being punished for my recent burst of happiness. Now come on Karma, play fair.

Ciao for now

TJ

Spooky Goings On & It's Written In The Stars

Its been a weird day. Four times either I've gotten into a car or bus or turned the radio on in the office to hear the song, Walking On Sunshine by Katrina & the Waves. AF wondered if a higher power was trying to tell me something. Eek!

Talking of spooky, my stars are telling me to write a book, which I already have. I just haven't put it out there, I guess. Im not sure if the world is ready for my literary style. I did consider serialising it & putting it on a blog but I'm a) too lazy to type it & b) scared of the response. What if no one likes it? Its kind of my little baby & I don't think I could cope with the rejection, although you'd think I'd be used to that feeling by now!

In other news, R has been behaving inexplicably strange all day. Every time he saw me he'd put his fingers in a gun shape & "shoot" me. Nice. Either he's displaying his intent or he's gearing up to watch the Bond movie thats on tonight.

A big boo to Nexus for whom I work out all our stats for every Friday afternoon before I leave & every Monday morning first thing. You know like who we transported the previous week, what type of social exclusion group they belong to etc - all fancy words the Council & Government like to hear. Anyway the head of Nexus came on the phone to moan that he had'nt recieved the stats since mid June. Lying son of a bitch. They are sent every Monday at about 10am without fail unless I'm on holiday. As it was after getting on his high horse for some time he realised he hadn't checked the tabs at the bottom of the spreadsheet. Once he clicked through those, the stats magically appeared. I didn't get my apology though, the bastard.

Oh & Im upset coz two of my favourite t-shirts have been ruined on my holidays by the suncream I wore *sob* though I am desperately trying to salvage them. And finally a MASSIVE thank you to T - my T not the horrid £12k T who's nicked my pay rise - you know why baby xx

Ciao for now

TJ

A Good Time Was Had By All & The Mind Boggles

Firstly I'd like to pay a quick tribute to one of my favourite old school sires, Woodman (Chestnut, above) & the sire of my all time favourite filly, Bosra Sham who started my love affair with racing way back in 1996. He sadly died at the age of 24 while I was on holiday. In other news my beautiful Teofilo (Bay horse) has been offically retired due to his tendon injury & will take up stallion duties in Ireland as of 2008. I can't wait to see his offspring. Im sure they'll be as talented as he is. Its kind of poetic how one old school boy passes on & the new kid gears up to start what I hope will be a long & successful stud career.

Apparently I wasn't the only one out on Friday night. JC was bowling with her mates whilst totally slaughtered & is covered in masive bruises due to over zealous efforts & AC, R & AF were down the town on the pull. The mind boggles at the thought of AC on the pull. He is to put it simply, gross. Im surprised he ever gets laid at all. I certainly wouldn't want him on top or beneath me in bed for that matter! Eww. Now I have a horrific image in my head.

R tried to torture me by claiming he saw me & although he did a decent enough job of describing what I was wearing right down to the colour of my eyeshadow (although its not rocket science as I pretty much always wear the same thing on a night out) he let himself down on the venue. I would usually have been in the bar he said on an ordinary night out with the girls so fair play to him for trying. As it was, I was completely over the opposite end of the town. But this did get me thinking, I never realised I was such a creature of habit!

I had the Enrique Iglesias "Ping Pong Song" aka Do You Know? stuck in my head as it was the last thing I heard on the radio before I left the house for work. I hate Enrique with a passion & I hate his music even more so I've been doing my own head in today, never mind every body else's!

And finally we had loads of fun today due to a very powerful cycle on the works washing machine. You could feel the vibrations through the floorboards the entire length of the building & once you sat on certain chairs, well lets just say we didn't get too much work done at all! Oh, I forgot - we have two new volunteer drivers starting tomorrow. First impressions?! Hmm, the jury is out on that one!

Ciao for now

TJ

Do Old Flames Ever Go Out?

Just a short one coz I'm off out.

An old flame of mine from about eighteen months ago came into the office today for a meeting with our leader E & £12k T. When I saw him again with his cheeky smile & friendly face, although I haven't thought of him prior to this day & we only dated briefly & didn't sleep together, I still felt my stomach flip.

Which begged the question of the day, "Do we ever get over our ex's?". Im tempted to say no, not really. Anyone we choose to spend part of our lives with are cound to always have a little place in our hearts. Or at least thats what I believe.

R begged to differ & its not often he begs, I can tell you. He reckoned ex's are nothing but trouble & are best avoided... unless you want an easy, ready made shag. Thanks for that R! Ever the voice of reason, AF agreed with me though he couldn't explain my stomach flips coz thats also been added to our list of "love signs" whilst I was away.

God I'm so confused! Ciao for now

TJ

Not Worth The Paper Its Written On

Just a quick one today.

Before I even got to work I woke up and couldn't get out of bed. Not coz Im too lazy but coz either my hip joint or my pelvis locked. It happens on occasion when I've sat or lay in the same position for ages without moving. It took me 10 mins to ease myself out of bed & at least another 10 to inch my way to the bathroom. I tell you if this is an indication of how my arthritis will be in old age, then just shoot me now. The pain was horrific.

Once at work, an eagle eyed colleague spotted someting on over non-american's CV that confirms my gut feeling of something being not quite right with him. It transpires that we have a superhero in our midst for not only did he complete a two year degree in one yea, in between all that studying he managed a shipping company and owned his own computer business - over in the states of course which we can't verify. Oh yes & he helped his wife bring up four kids of course.

Yeah right. He also vanished off the face of the Earth for six years from the time he left school to walking straight into a shipping managers job. We don't believe a word of it. Still it gave us all a good laugh.

So thats it, ciao for now

TJ

Newsround & It Must Be Love

At least I had butterfiles today thinking naughty thoughts about someone & usually butterflies = love in my world. Eek! But shh, he doesn't know & most probably never will. Being loved up means dropping your guard & I can't coz once you get hurt & I can't take any more emotional pain in my life.

Anyway work wise we have the auditers in & guess who has to work with her? Don't get me wrong she is a very nice girl but I just can't be bothered to be so helpful right now. I need to re-adjust to the workplace, as Im still in ditzy holiday mode.

Apparently while I was away I missed loads of stuff. The same happens every year! Anyway, we had a surprise inspection by the city council which we believe wasn't a coincidence. AC is on his final, final warning (although this has to be his 26th final warning if you ask me) for reversing into a brand new parked car at the petrol station. He also got clocked one day by our bosses doing 52mph in a 30mph zone. R got a mosquito bite on his bits on his hols which I found most amusing but I declined his request to rub soothing lotion on it. J had a right screaming session with drivers B & AC last Friday over fuel cards.

One of our volunteers K, who has only been with us three weeks got arrested for fighting. £12k T has been made a permanent member of staff which has seriously pissed me off coz the longer he sticks around the less chance there is of me getting my long promised pay rise and boss E was chronically ill & lost one stone in weight but no one knows why. He is ok now though. I hope its not catchy coz I can't afford to loose a stone!

Im also so pissed off with Top Dog & Mini who went to see Transformers last week when I wasn't here & they knew I wanted to see it as well. Selfish pigs - I hope you both go as red as lobsters on your hols! And finally, I had the song "I wanna have your babies" by Natasha Bedingfield stuck in my head all day. Mostly just the chorus & singing that randomly throughout the day would have caused some a few raised eyebrows in such a male dominated workplace but the guys all know me by now & didn't bat an eyelid.

Ciao for now

TJ