My Name Is Teige

As the only rant I would have today is toward God (should one exist) I decided against it for fear of a public backlash from religious fanatics. Its widely regarded that I'll be going to hell anyway so if there does turn out to be a God & I get to stand before him & he's looking at my life & all my misdemeanours before deciding whether to let me in heaven or not, I won't be remotely fazed when he says "Right missy you're going to hell."

What I will say is I do believe in Karma, Fate & Destiny & in general if we do good things then good things happen to us but if we do bad things then obviously you get a shit deal in life. I've always believed this & AF is starting to come round to my way of thinking thanks in part to one of my favourite TV shows, "My Name Is Earl".

As it is, I try to be a good person but quite a lot of the time it doesn't work. I think I'm just managing to break even with the offsetting the good to the bad though recently, since my sis moved back in, I have done more bad things than good. She brings out the worst in me.

This whole subject arose when my friend who is a sickeningly good person - in fact I always think she's an angel in human form - was in a car crash last night & I was going down the "if there's a God why do bad things happen to good people?" route at work. It wasn't her fault at all but she does have terrible whiplash & is off work for a while. She's quite badly shaken obviously & is a little afraid to get behind the wheel again at the moment. I only found out about it this morning as she didn't want to upset me further last night as I'd alreadyu had some bad news about my nana. See, I told you she's a complete angel xx

So in order for two unpleasant things to have happened in my life in such a short space of time, Karma must be punishing me for something quite bad that I've done though I can't pinpoint what as of yet. Typically it comes at a time when I thought I was finally turning my life around & actually beginning to feel positive & happy about my future (thanks again T!). Unless I'm being punished for my recent burst of happiness. Now come on Karma, play fair.

Ciao for now

TJ